The literature of every kind and level is populated by characters (almost always the case in reality for young girls) who have severe pain too muted, the soul imprisoned in a compound, protected by impenetrable silence. They are nice people and broken, no longer willing (or capable or just interested) to ensure that a part of himself - a thought, an emotion - is shared with others. Condition is very poor, so that these characters to test the reader an immediate feeling of sympathy. People do not live only so
novels. I'm not a psychologist nor a psychiatrist. I do not know, therefore, identify with certainty the reasons for which we excludes the assembly of his fellow men.
There is defended from possible new future suffering? You want to punish others with their indignant rejection? It is the wasting of any trust in the power and utility of the word? Or, rather, is a strong fear of themselves and their own instincts which leads to close in on itself? Maybe all these things together. Again, I do not know.
I just know that today I write this blog after more than thirteen months of silence. It, in this long period, I obviously tried to understand why. I've found more than one and each one certainly contains some truth.
Certainly the intensity of my days (like those of all who work and try not to let the work is the undisputed
dominus of his life) does not allow me to settle all the information that well with hard work trying to put together. It certainly says what we thought and the exercise of thinking takes time and, above all, strength. Sometimes I seem to be on a train watching the world go fast through the window, you see a house and soon after a tree, but that house and that tree you can say only that they have a house and a tree.
I was also tempted to believe that this long break in my broadcast to the feeling you were (not at all pleasant) that he had already said much, if not all, and that write new meaning at the most stress - maybe better, with new topics and new examples - the same content.
is daunting, often realize that they have nothing to say.
If, as I said in the first post
nearly five years ago, this blog has been opened in tribute to the small deceptions, well, I stopped taking the bar with unsuspected consistency, because in reality my silence is due to lack of time or arguments. Those reasons (although based) were only the subtle way in which I tried to quell the anxiety that caused me not feel any desire to communicate.
I, however, I have not written for lack of courage.
Hate is a feeling that I do not concede. I've always tried not to hate nobody, so far - I think - can. I'm not envious, nor fortune, nor the skill of others. I tried to focus a lot on what I can and I know I do. I am deeply convinced that its best to do things is in itself a goal and an outcome in life. They are also open and trusting to the next, I think that biodiversity is an asset to the man even before the environment and yet I am confident - as recalled by every now and Ivano Fossati - that common sense can save us from it all.
In the latter year, however, I have not had the courage to accept that if I wrote - I know - the story of Adro, I would not have been better able to tease and wind up the story with his usual, easy, even vehement, unblemished against mattan Lega. I was afraid to write the truth and say that I am stupid, now I hate her.
I hate these people forcing others to confront their stupidity.
If the families of each of the twins Sarah Scazzi or hood of the crime of which Garlasco, revealing a human inadequacy that you can not even tell, they had no qualms to exploit their victims themselves for a while 'the media of happiness, I feel sorry (not pity), who, morbid, they're watching television watching these people tell, cry, blame each other, I now hate them. It's not that they despise. I hate them really.
I hate those who, in the face of any argument, they say
"But they started the other party" . They are no longer willing to accept that human carelessness, indifference toward everything that is not absolute and immediate and personal interest, failure to consider the existence of everything other than itself.
I feel invaded by people other than me who has no respect for the way we think and live. I finally I understood, I began to hate these people. I understand and I are despised.
That's what I did not want to see me. It is the courage to know myself inhabited by hatred that I missed so far. This is the cancer that I would not spit out of his mouth and that I kept inside with the words.